I feel guilty for doing things I've always done. That I've always said I would do- no matter who thought what about it.

I've always thought it brought me closer to God... but you.. You take me to heights I have never been before.
I've always said it helps me be open... but you... You bring out this side of me that no one- not even myself has ever known.
I've always used the excuse that it makes me creative... but you.. You are the true muse. The true truth.

So this is what it's like to grow up.
This is what it's like to really love and be loved.

...I am in awe of this and you and of myself.






I can't even believe I am about to click "publish post".